Hey hey hey!
I was innocently scrolling through my Twitter timeline last week when I saw some pictures. It was a birthday photoshoot and I have to admit that the pictures were beautiful- one of the cutest pictures I’ve seen in a while.
I proceeded to innocently check the lady’s profile and when I saw the name, I paused. The name was familiar but the tweets weren’t. From the timeline, I could sense that this lady was a believer because most of what she shared was on her faith and belief in Jesus.
I was shocked.
The first feeling that crept into my heart was the same one I felt about 6-7 years ago. For a better perspective, this story should start at the beginning. I’ve been running from sharing these kinda posts but we’re here now, so…
So, I remember making a promise with two of my closest friends that we wouldn’t date anyone in Secondary School. All of that flew out in my last year, SS3.
I dated someone. It started out as those “Aww” kinda relationships but it was all really silly. First, we were pretty young. Second and most importantly, it didn’t honour God in anyway.
However, we really ‘lusted’ each other. There was a party outside school one day and me and a few friends planned to snick out of school to attend.
(Note: Most of us were boarders.) But I needed to go because of boyfie. I didn’t want him dancing with other girls, it was a club party.
We made it! Boyfie was able to focus on me for the most part that I was there but I couldn’t spend long and had to run back to boarding house. Sigh.
The bomb dropped the next Monday when my closest day-student friend told me boyfie had cheated of me at the party. The same party I sacrificed a lot to attend. If Matron had caught us ehn…let’s not even go there. Lol.
He later confessed and begged me to forgive him. I don’t think I’ve heard promises from anyone like that before. I doubt even my biological father has promised me like that, because the man will only do his best and not promise you heaven and earth. Lol. (Diverting…)
In summary, that ‘situationship’ (not relationship) ended. And the sweet lady involved in that situation was the same lady I saw on Twitter. (Yes, I found out who the lady was that boyfie cheated with. Even now, I think I need to add ‘stalking’ to my CV).
I hated her from afar. I doubt she ever knew or even knows me till now; but I definitely had something against her then.
And that was the first feeling that almost crept into my heart when I realized who she was last week.
God then reminded me- SALVATION IS THE GREATEST GIFT!
Ahh, if I am saved and she is saved, we’re even now sisters in Christ! Instead, I pray for her to grow and experience God like she has never done before; that she will be more and more like Jesus on this earth.
Thinking of all of this makes me smile. God has humour, trust me!
I could be living with the guilt of my past mistakes, she could be living with hers, but I’m thankful that I am a new creature; old things have passed away and all things are now new. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
This post didn’t ‘let me be’ since last week so I know that I needed to share it. I spoke with a friend who also made mistakes in the past (who amongst us hasn’t?), but she’s in a place where she can’t share it. The shame and hurt still haunts her.
The struggle is real. And I often think about some things and wonder, has God really forgiven me of that? I know that small sin is forgiven, but what about that other big one?
And God is saying: I haven’t only forgiven you, I have forgotten about your past. I deal with you as my bride because that’s who you become when you accept me, Queen Mobolaji.
God even calls me Queen, haha!
Honestly, SALVATION IS THE GREATEST GIFT. And if this lady is saved, then what joy must be in heaven over the both of us!
This post isn’t about me just sharing stuff, but it’s to encourage you.
YOU NEED TO STOP LIVING IN THE PAST!
If you’re saved, why do you still let the devil shame you over your past?
The Bible says to comfort others with the comfort you’ve been given.
Do you know how many other people need the comfort from your story?
Go out and share it with those that God has sent you to.
Enough of the pity party I regularly see among believers.
If you’re now a King…
If you’re now a Queen…
Then walk and talk and live like one.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.
2 Corinthians 5:17 ESV
Light and love,
P.S: Don’t forget to watch this video where I talk about few things I’ve learned about my purpose in God.
P.S.S: If you’re the one in this situation, will you reach out to the lady or secretly pray for her as you pray for other believers?
P.S.S.S: I can’t believe I shared this story; it makes me laugh though. Oh, how I love Jesus!