“”Look, I’m dying of starvation!” said Esau. “What good is my birthright to me now?”
I read this verse this morning and a word I never noticed before jumped at me.
The word is ‘now’.
As simple as it may look in the statement Esau made, it holds the depth of the issue he was dealing with- the inability to wait for things.
To him, hunger meant more NOW than the fact that he was the first child. Or maybe he didn’t quite understand what his birthright meant (identity crisis), but Jacob did.
But Jacob said, “First you must swear that your birthright is mine.” So Esau swore an oath, thereby selling all his rights as the firstborn to his brother, Jacob.
We can’t lie, our generation is much like this, unable to wait for things.
It’s interesting that a #10YearsChallenge is all over Social Media this period. But I’ve been more futuristic, who am I going to be in the next 10 years?
A lot of the answers depend on what I’m willing to wait for and wait on.
Just in case you think I’m saying we all just need to wait and do nothing all of our lives, let me illustrate what I really mean.
I’m trying to lose some weight that I gained over the past 2-3 years. I know my body type (identity), but I’ve still struggled to stay consistent. I know that once I don’t eat certain foods or eat at certain times of the day, I will lose the extra weight.
I know that if I just incorporate weekly walks into my schedule, I will lose the extra weight.
But I wouldn’t lie, a lot of the times, I want what I want NOW and care less about the weight I’m trying to shed.
Though this is a small example, there are deeper, more spiritual things we need to learn to wait on and wait for.
We as believers must not be the ‘Gimme Gimme Now’ generation. It reminds me of my nieces, they’re children and when they want something ehn, they will cry until you give them NOW (or until they’re tired of crying).
I think I’ve shared this experience here before, of a time my friend/neighbour got a cute piggy bank from her Mum. I think I was a teenager or younger and I soon became covetous.
I started harassing my mum that I ‘needed’ a piggy bank too. I knew we weren’t as rich as our neighbours then, I knew my mum was working hard with her shop to support my Dad, but I still wanted what I wanted. I didn’t care who it inconvenienced.
She gave in and gave me the money to buy mine, but guess what happened immediately after I owned the piggy bank- I hated it!
I wasn’t even regret, it was hate. I couldn’t and still can’t explain that feeling. It was just as cute as my neighbour’s, but I couldn’t stand it anymore.
I loved it in another person’s hand and hated it when I forced it into mine.
God keeps bringing things to highlight here and I know it’s for someone (as much as it’s for me too).
Some of us struggle with fasting. I don’t know how I fell from having consistent weekly fasts (without any one or church asking) to struggling all together with fasts.
This isn’t legalism. I know the things I got from those personal fasts, ahh, I’m still being blessed by those times. So, why do I struggle to wait to eat so that I can gain the true food that is spiritual insight, understanding and growth.
This post by my friend Debs helped remind me of the bigger picture. I’m thankful that I’m again on that path of subduing my flesh so that my spirit man can overcome.
I don’t know where or how you’re struggling to wait.
You don’t need to keep going round that mountain, go to God now about it and ask Him to show you how to deal with it.
The devil might make it seem like you need everything NOW, but trust me, there are somethings worth waiting for.
Will you ask God to help you wait and wait with the right attitude too?
Then Jacob gave Esau some bread and lentil stew. Esau ate the meal, then got up and left. He showed contempt for his rights as the firstborn.”
Genesis 25:32-34 NLT
May we not show contempt for the rights that God has already given us because of our inability to wait for and on Him.
Love and light,