Hey hey hey!
It’s been a long time since I last wrote to you and today I’m sharing something very dear to me today.
I started a new job in January and immediately noticed something about one of my new colleagues. He always stepped out to talk to his wife whenever he felt stressed. The first time he did this, I think I rolled my eyes and thought: “abeg, it’s not only you that is married here”. But I later found out that he wasn’t doing this to spite anybody.
So here’s the thing, one day, my colleague was feeling really stressed out and instinctively said out loud “I’m going out to call my wife. She always has a way of calming me down.”
As I mentioned earlier, even though I thought they were cute, I still rolled my eyes the first time. But this happened consistently and true to his word, he’ll always step out to have a long conversation with his wife.
He soon stopped saying it out when we harassed him, but I still noticed that he stepped out to place a call whenever he was having a rough or tough day at work.
I then started to think, who do I call when I’m in a similar situation?
To be honest, sometimes I step out angry, frustrated or go out to just calm my head – all in the flesh, but I was reminded yesterday that I have someone to call.
I can always always reach out to Abba on good and even on terrible days.
13th of May made it exactly one year since my mum went to be with the Lord and because I was awake by 12am, I started crying from then. It is still like a dream and many times, I want to wake from the nightmare.
But I leaned on a word in Revelation that says that:
“He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There won’t be any more death. There won’t be any grief, crying, or pain, because the first things have disappeared.”
Revelation 21:4 GW
And you guys, it literally felt like my birthday that day; from friends praying for me, calling, texting, sending me money and taking me out to dinner. I was surrounded by tangible love and it was all God!
A friend sent me a video of a cute mum and daughter yesterday to stimulate motherhood in me and I replied that as cute as it was, a part of me was utterly scared of the feeling of being a mum. Me, my Mum’s baby will someday have a baby and I just couldn’t bring myself to think it.
Thankfully, I was reminded to take the feeling of inadequacy to God and I was so thankful for that reminder. That I can take my whole self, my fears, even shame – and know that He will accept me.
The best part?
He doesn’t leave us as He meets us.
He then starts the work of redemption in our hearts and souls and begins to change us one day at a time.
Mahn, I keep remembering things. This Sunday, I took Opening Prayers at my church (another thing I felt inadequate to do) and I kept asking everyone to thank God for the miracle of changed lives because of a testimony I had heard on Wednesday during Midweek service.
Only for another person to come out and give his testimony of being delivered from the addiction to Tramadol. I work in this drug addiction space and know how tough it is to be set free. It takes years of medical care and resilience.
Then this person steps out and shares how the word and prayer started to change him and how that was strong enough to deliver him from addiction. I cried fam! It felt like it was my brother giving the testimony because as a believer, he indeed is my brother.
It might seem like we’ve moved from the original lesson on calling on God in difficult times, but it is all intertwined.
You never have to feel alone or inadequate.
You too can just step out and talk to your Abba Father when it starts to get too much. He always knows how to calm your nerves.
“We have a chief priest who is able to sympathize with our weaknesses. He was tempted in every way that we are, but he didn’t sin. So we can go confidently to the throne of God’s kindness to receive mercy and find kindness, which will help us at the right time.”
Hebrews 4:15-16 GW
Love and light.