It’s the last day of the year and I’ve spent time reflecting on how my year went.
I lost a lot this year; my passion for God and His friendship, my intimacy with the Lord, my fervency for service, my hunger for the Word.
What’s funny is how I can still be thankful, in fact, I am so thankful. This year has really taught me that God is my life and without Him, I can only exist.
I finished University this year, got a job; but still felt empty inside. It started gradually, miss my quiet time here, miss going to church there, miss praying; until it became the norm for me not to do these things.
I can go on and on about how lost I felt spiritually, like fish out of water; but I knew that God still put a wall of fire around me.
I’m excited about the new year because I’m certain it will be the year of “The Word” for me.
The Bible is so beautiful, I don’t know why I ignored it a lot this year. It’s the only book that has had the consistent power to change me and I’m grateful for the privilege to have access to it and get to know God more through it.
I want to be God’s Proverbs 31 woman from now; God’s own special wife and treat Him like the good husband He is.
I spent time reading the last chapter in Proverbs and then read some books of Ecclesiastics and could clearly see the contrast in both books.
One contained Godly wisdom and the other mostly human wisdom.
It’s funny how I one time thought everything in the book of Ecclesiastics was true, until I saw a tweet by someone that challenged me to dig deeper and read with the help of the Holy Spirit.
It became even more profound the distinction between both books today. I believe Solomon’s wisdom (which was God’s gift by the way) took the place of a god in his life; apart from the gods he worshipped because of his many heathen wives and concubines.
There were too many ‘I, I, I’
I undertook great projects: I built houses for myself and planted vineyards. I made gardens and parks and planted all kinds of fruit trees in them. I made reservoirs to water groves of flourishing trees. I bought male and female slaves and had other slaves who were born in my house. I also owned more herds and flocks than anyone in Jerusalem before me. I amassed silver and gold for myself, and the treasure of kings and provinces. I acquired male and female singers, and a harem as well—the delights of a man’s heart. I became greater by far than anyone in Jerusalem before me. In all this my wisdom stayed with me.
Ecclesiastes 2:4-9 NIV
Truth be told, this year was filled with many I from me too.
I found that like Solomon, God’s gifts in my life began to take His place.
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction.
Proverbs 1:7 NIV
This shows that if we’re not careful, the wisdom in us while writing Proverbs can drastically change to the one in Ecclesiastics; if we refuse to submit to God and His awesome plans for our lives.
Of course, some things shared in Ecclesiastics are true, especially the last few verses of the book. But we must be desperate for God each and everyday so that that which He gave us yesterday doesn’t fascinate us so much that we ignore Him totally.
Need to go now!
Just grateful that I can share this and that I get another chance to do life with Abba.
Love and light,
Still, I end the year, hand raised, heart full and crown casted before the One who calls me friend.
He must become greater; I must become less.”
John 3:30 NIV
Happy new year, saints! ❤